Whatever Will Be Will Be.......

KAY SARA SARA!!!!.(Whatever will be will be). To be honest...I myself had absolutely no idea why I was there either or why i even managed to last that long on the show. Don't get me wrong...there was a lot of wonderful moments that remained unseen by you the viewers, how else could some of the girls form such a close bond without those moments ever being there. Dur ring the makeup and preparation for the three girls who won the competition. Katie, Reena and I had A very close bonding session (spiritually)and were able to figure out the reasoning behind a few of us being chosen to be apart of this game. In a few of the blog entries i read i noticed that some of you were asking "why was Qui there in the first place." One thing i must admit is that i am a very confident person and, much like the average human being, have my up and my downs. Its only a matter of what make Television that makes "ME."

At some point in the show i sat down with Sarah C and told her a story about my past and how i managed to reach a pit stop that led me to a state of oblivion about what i wanted to do with my life. I told her of my constant travel from state to state with no direction and school to school with no path (at that point Sarah had told me she had never attend college). Sarah C managed to use this story to win the completion with Pat Obrien. And because she lied i figured it was very much like trying to sell a fake Luis Vuitton Purse or fake Chanel bag and the deserving party was Katie. I decided to address this to the judges who then dismissed my claim as if i couldn't have been proved...."worry about yourself" i was told and with that! I could no longer be a part of this competition where i felt that all the good guys come in last...Jillian, Julan, Vanessa, and now the judges were willing to trade what was genuine and honest for what was not....KAY SARA SARA!

I very much so believed that i should have went home...Because from the moment that i realized that the game had changed my heart was no longer there. It's not that i wasn't willing to change...Its just that i wasn't willing to let all of America into my personal life.I wasn't willing to lie, fabricate, or create any stories in order to win $50,000 or embarrass my family.

But one thing i can say is that i met a group of wonderful girls that will leave a lasting impression in my mind for the rest of my life. The game of life is a difficult one to "PLAY"...... But it was Fun!!!!!

Good Luck Girls
XOXOX